Emotionally 23.

Why has turning 23 meant so much to me?

I'm really not sure. I'm not depressed because i'm older, or that my life is slipping from my hands, because it's not. I'm just starting.
I have so many plans, and so many places I want to go.

God is SO GOOD to me. He has blessed me so infinitely, keeping me healthy, and giving me some of the best news ever in the past few weeks.


It's really unbelievable to think about how far i've come, just in the past 10 years alone.
From 13 to 23, I have experienced so much. I have gotten to see wonderful things and not so wonderful things. I have made mistakes and achieved accomplishments.

I've lost friends, annnnd lost more friends.

But it's alright.

It seems that I have a new outlook on how i'm going to live my life. 

I am more and more thankful, with every passing moment, that I get to take another breath. 

Since I almost didn't get to, 23 years ago today.

I have so many plans for this up coming year. I don't want to have babies yet, because I want my home to be ready for them (whether people think that's possible or not). I am in no rush at life. That is something about me that has surely changed in the past year. In the beginning of 2014 I was PUMPEd to get pregnant. But that's not how it is now. I know myself better. I know where I stand. It WILL happen everyone, just be patient.

Let me live my life for a while first, before I take on responsibility for another one.

I'm sorry, that was a rant. I am just so sure of myself now, I'm no longer going to let other people tell me how they think I should live my life.

I'm no angry at anyone. I'm just making my own choices, and expressing how I feel about those choices.  I wanna run, and paint my walls, and light candles, and go out with my husband, and travel America, all while making plans for the future, but not jumping in head first without any kind of prayer or strong thinking behind it. It's time I grew up, and came back to reality.

There's nothing wrong with how i'm living.

I'm 23 now. Let's start something different.

Here's 23 plans for my 23rd year.

1. Always trust God.

2. Dance in the river.

3.  Wear my glasses.

4. More tea, less coffee.

5. Maybe stop watching so much youtube.

6.  Take my photography business to a whole new level.

7. On that note, get a new camera.

8. Get more rest.

9. Completely excel at my new job, and take my career further with every day.

10. Paint my house.

11. Clean out the spare bedroom.

12. Use my fire place :)

13. Keep up the fitness. Work hard at it.

14. Run more.

15. Keep up listening to K-Love, 3 months strong, no other music.

16. Go to Winter Jam.

17. Visit Washington.

18. Take a beach trip, just Dyllon and I.

19. Spend more and more and more time with my husband.

20. Help my church as much as possible to grow in the new location.

21. Take our financial class, and stick to it.

22. No more tattoos this year.

23. Plant flowers.

I know that these were not exciting things. But these are things I genuinely plan on accomplishing in my 23rd year. I'm sure I can do it though.